I haven’t blogged in a while for a couple of reasons.
1. I have been having big headache problems again. For the last two months I have been having them almost daily. I am seeing a neurologist here and I am on a new medication that seems to be making it a little better, headaches half the week instead of daily. So I have been trying to just do the basics everyday. Keeping up with life is hard right now.
2. When I started blogging I did it to kind of feel apart of the “online sewing community”, have on line friends who do the same things I do to share with. It was fun that way. But lately I feel like I am comparing myself too much with other blogs and feeling like mine isn’t good enough. If I don’t get a lot of page views or comments I start to feel bad about myself. I know it is just dumb but with the headaches I am not in a “good self esteem place”.
3. When I started blogging it was a good motivator for me to make something every week. Now I feel like I have to make something if I want my blog to be good, then it feels more like work.
4. I don’t know what I like anymore. I don’t even know what I want to make. A lot of the trendy things out there right now don’t work for my body type.
So if I can get my head healthy, my attitude right, my self esteem in a good place, and find a style for myself I will totally keep blogging, but right now I think I need a break.